Laziness? Help Me? I know, I know. No one is talking about this. Most of the time when we feel or dare to talk to anyone about feeling lazy we expect to be berated. And we are. There is just no tolerance for being or feeling lazy. Right? How many times have you been hard on yourself because you feel really tired, sluggish, or just don’t seem to be able to do what you thought you could or really wanted to? I’m here to tell you that laziness might actually be really helpful to you if you pay attention to it instead of talking down to it. Here’s how I figured this out.
Two years ago I was in the shape of my life. I was dong hard core workouts, boot camps, mud runs, and I was loving it! I enjoy being physically active and was finally supported in doing these things. My husband began to undergo a physical transformation so I had a partner!! I was very happy and very fit.
Then I began to focus on other things and I started to do less and less physical activity. I was doing a lot of studying and writing so I didn’t think too much of it because I was coming from a peak place physically and was healthy. After some time, being physical came to mind again. The sheer thought of it did not excite me at all. I had never felt like this before. I was actually turned off at the thought of working out. “Oh well,” I thought, “it’ll come back.” Then I tried to work out and had the worst experience of my life. Just barely in the warm up I wanted to quit. I felt tired and sluggish. I did the workout and felt sick afterward. I could hardly breathe. “Did I not eat right? Is this because I worked out in the afternoon instead of the morning?” This really scared me. I had never experienced anything like this before.
If you watched the video you could see I intended to push through my feelings and keep working out. I filmed the video because I had intended to document myself doing a P90X 90 day challenge but I didn’t work out again after that. I tried twice and couldn’t. It made me feel really bad. I thought I was just getting lazy. I certainly felt lazier. I preferred staying in instead of going out at nights. My desire for vegetables which I love declined and I found myself wanting more comfort foods. I wasn’t very active anymore at all. I didn’t feel like walking so I’d ask to take the car places and then I had a sign I just couldn’t brush off.
While at my in-laws, I ran up the stairs to get something and I could hear my heart beat in my ears. I felt winded like I had to work really hard to catch my breath. I told my husband about it and when it happened again at another visit to their house, I told my mother-in-law about it. She happens to be a registered nurse and told me that I was probably low in hemoglobin which is responsible for carrying oxygen throughout my body. She asked me more questions and told me I was probably low in iron too. This talk, made me get serious about booking my physical for the year which I had access to because of my insurance for free but just wasn’t doing because I had “other things to do” and didn’t think of myself as needing it.
When I went to the Dr, it turns out I was very low in Iron and Hemoglobin. The “laziness” that I was experiencing was my body’s way of telling me it needed serious attention! And not in the way of me simply berating it to get to work, but in the way that involved loving care by way of iron supplements, vegetables, and seeing the Dr. to understand what was going on!
I have since been taking my Iron supplements and am no longer feeling that winded, tired, heartbeat in my eardrums feeling. I have gone back to working out and while yes, there is a little ramping up involved to be where I used to be, on the scale of 1- 100 I’m at about an 80 starting off instead of the 40 I was feeling before finding out was was wrong and fixing it. Big difference!!
If you are feeling really lazy, not wanting to do things you once did, not able to do things you once did, please take a deeper look into it. This is a way of your body communicating with you. Perhaps you are really sad, really stressed, low in Iron or some other important nutrient, or simply just tired! Whatever your reason is, you need special care and attention. Please give it to yourself, you deserve it.
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